ear Son,

Life has lifted me to elation and brought me to my knees in anguish. I have felt confidence that the kings of old could not match, which has then been matched by extreme and terrifying insecurity.

I have won victories. I have loved. I have given much of who I am to others. I have also stolen and lied. I have also hurt people and sometimes intentionally.

I love music and dancing, but I usually don’t tell people about the latter. I love art, but have never studied it to a point where I can really talk much about it.

I tend to embellish, which has brought both laughter and pain.

I have lost nearly every friend I have gained. Maybe that is just how life goes, but I don’t know for sure. I can inspire people one minute and neglect them the next and not know of what I’ve done.

I love technology. I feel it’s important to move its cause forward and improve lives along the way. I like to think I can play a role in doing that, but legacy is a hard thing to consider amidst so many questions about identity and purpose.

I believe in God, but sometimes feel lost anyway.

I met and married your mom before I knew much of anything about life or love or family. That much is certain. But in the ensuing months and years I feel I am slowly coming alive through the process of building a family.

On top of everything you’ll hear me say to you for the rest of your life, I want you to know that I have no idea what I’m doing. But I want to learn. And I want to learn with you.


Your Dad, McKay

Posted by McKay Thomas on June 30, 2012 at 2:02 p.m.